A couple weeks ago Vanessa wrote a post on her blog about being torn. Torn that is between being on campus full-time, and being at home full-time as a mom.
I am currently going through maybe a similar feeling, although i think the work "in limbo" would better describe it.
For me, besides a week off that I will take immediately after the baby is born, I will remain on campus full-time. Where the "in limbo" part comes in is that I don't know when I will take that week. It could be today, tomorrow, or 3 weeks from now. But at some point in the next little while, i will leave my full-time job to be at home to help with our child and be gone for a week. What makes it even harder is that a week and a half from now, we have our major outreach of the year, probably besides Frosh week, our craziest week. I don't know if i will be there for some, none, or all of it. It is hard to volunteer to do stuff when you cant be sure that you are going to be there. Also, my first year guys Bible study is just getting started, an engineering Bible study just started, amongst other things.
Now don't get me wrong. I will be thrilled once our son is born to take the week off. It is just now knowing when that is which is the hard part. To borrow a term from poker, it is hard to be "all in" on campus, knowing i will be pulling off at anytime.